Things just fall into place

After a dry and quiet 2009 Christmas, 2010's holiday season seemed so exciting and fun, because Ian is finally 1 year (instead of barely 1 month) and we could celebrate and go out and enjoy our friends as a family. So when the New Year weekend was approaching, I started to dread coming back to work, which is something I hadn't felt since I joined SCB.

It was with some apprehension that I prepared for another round of waking up early and being home just before Ian sleeps. Finally on 3rd January, the cycle of work started. I had secretly been afraid of being at a loss for work - I had been doing sales for 6 years in the company before making this switch into unknown territory. If I was still managing my team, I told my husband, I would already have planned a direction and know what's needed to be done for the first 3 weeks of January.

Then Monday came, and then Tuesday, and both days were abuzz with activities. I am grateful that the pace is just right for me. I had no expectations of the colleagues, but they turned out to be rather entertaining as well. Taking the MRT back these 2 days, I felt abit of deja vu, like my feelings and thoughts when I just started work after maternity. Good sign then.

So 2011 has started on the right foot. The only thing is, when I returned yesterday, Ian seemed to want me more, and I think it's because he missed me more now, with his awareness growing. He is changing very fast, and now he can understand alot more of what's happening. This morning I taught him to stick out 2 fingers as "two", and he gamely attempted to do as I asked. Then when he was half getting there, he would suddenly erupt in enthusiastic applause for himself, grinning widely and showing his 1 single tooth.

As much as I enjoy the work I do during working hours, once I head to the MRT I will start missing Ian and wishing I could spend more time with him and chiding myself for not leaving on time. But at the end of the day, I have no complaints. There are things to work for and look forward to this year, and for the challenges, well I trust that my God will work things out for me at the right time. Like what He did for Ian's caretaking, and what He has done so many times for me. Everything just fell into place, it almost seemed natural.

With this self reminder on His faithfulness and track record, I cast my usual concerns aside. I am trusting on being surrounded by His crown of glory. :)